Hey peoples, I just felt like posting a random Journal. Why? ‘cuz I’m bored XD. ANYWAYS…in my Speech class that I took over Spring Semester, we discussed Loving Styles and what kind we had, or thought we had.

The Styles the following:

Storge- This lover prefers slowly developing attachments that lead to lasting commitment.

Eros- This person is eager to develop an intense relationship with intimacy and strong
physical attraction.

Ludus- This lover is playful in love and "plays the field".

Mania- This person is very possessive and demanding.

Agape- This lover loves unconditionally, without expecting to receive anything in return.

Pragma- They search for a person with certain demographic factors: job, religion, salary, age, etc.

Care to guess what I am? Care to share what you think you are? X3 <3

On a more life related note:

Ok, so on Tuesday I called up my crush and the two of us had coffee at Starbucks. We sat and chilled outside since it was nice out. We talked about random stuff, killer bugs that lived in our garages, movies, classes, all that good stuff. So he asked me if he had taken me to Unique yet (Unique is the thrift store that he gets all of is clothes from) and when he said he hadn’t he asked me if I wanted to go.

Well duh I said yes I mean seriously who am I to deny spending more time with him? I told him that I’d have to follow him, being as I didn’t know where it was and would get HORRIBLY lost. He simply said that he would drive me and that he’d bring me back to Starbucks so I could go home.

So after running around Unique and him almost buying a pair of black sequined pants, yes he IS that awesome, we were heading out and he asked me if I was hungry. Well I hadn’t eaten anything, except for my coffee, so I said yah. We went to the Five Guys next door and, get this, HE BOUGHT ME LUNCH. Ok so needless to say I was floored, no guy had EVER bought me food before.

As we were sitting and eating his cell rang and I think it was some chick that he was/is dating. She was upset about some picture that his other friend Chole posted on Facebook of him and her, and she was all upset about it.

So after a good, I kid you not, five minutes of her ranting and raving he told her that he would call her later and he hung up. Then the weird thing happened. He looked at me and asked: “Do you want to get married?” I blinked several times and replied: “Yah eventually.” And continued to eat my fries. The he said: “No I mean to me.” I seriously thought my mind was going to implode on itself.

I don’t even really remember what I said to him after that. I know I said something about him ‘being one of the nicest guys I knew’ and him smirking. Then I joked about his ego swelling 10 times its normal size.Once finished with our food he then asked me of I was going to Deaf Day at Kings Dominion (the two of us have been in the same ASL class for 2 semesters). I told him no ‘cuz I had no money and the lacking of a job.

So the two of us left and he drove me back to Starbucks so I could head on home. We hugged and he told me to call him. When I asked when he simply replied whenever.

And thus brings to me to my present situation. I like him. I have since fall semester, but he doesn’t know that I do. And from what I can tell I think he enjoys hanging out with me because he doesn’t have to worry about me liking him in that way. If only he knew.

My mom thinks that I should go after him, but I don’t want to because of the current girlfriend (?) I think she is, I dunno, and I don’t wanna get in the middle of that.

The way I see it is that I have 2 options:

1. put the feelings away and continue to hang out with him (tried and is VERY hard)

OR

2. Stop seeing him all together (DO NOT WANT)

Ugh...I'm seriously hating my life right now. I want to have some reason to hang out with him again. I want to go to a movie or something with him, but he's already seen Iron Man (AMAIZING MOVIE GO SEE IT NOW IF YOU HAVENT!!) and Indiana Jones doesn't come out untill the 22nd and I dont even know when Wall-E comes out...BLAH *head-desk*